Having found many types of software bugs now.
I think infosec sucks.
A lot of people in infosec are smug assholes.
I think, for a large part of my career, I was driven mainly to prove them all wrong.
42 CVEs later.. in browser sandboxes, windows LPEs, TLS, IKEv2, Ipsec.. memory corruption bugs, logic bugs.. after 7 years, there is few boxes I have not checked yet, and the ones I havnt is mainly due to a lack of interest. I know this stuff, better then most of the smug assholes.
There are still challenges I want to claim, such as cryptography and side channel attacks. But this time, not to prove people wrong. But for the fun of breaking shit. The reason I started this.
People, they will always find reasons to downplay you, it probably comes from a place of insecurity. I think I have gotten to an age, where I'm slowly starting to find mental peace. For a long time, I wanted to belong somewhere, find my tribe, fit in somewhere. But honestly, I just want to stay as far away from people as I can. There is a lot about people I dont like. And I'm fine with that. Isolation does not cause distress anymore as it used to. I prefer isolation over the ugliness and cruelty of people.
Its important to get rid of the noise from people. Find mental peace. Pursue the things you like.
I really cant play the social media game anymore. I dont feel like I connect with this industry. My teamlead really wants to go to BH/Defcon this summer.. but I really do not. I dont know a single person in this industry, and after 7 years of being in this industry, neither do I want to. Fuck, I dont ever care about the talks. I dont need inspiration.. I got enough ideas in my head to keep me occupied for a lifetime.
I literally feel more of a connection with the homeless folks here. They are much more sincere then infosec people.